Friday, December 29, 2006
Timeless
this is the second time I am typing my year end reflections... but I figured I would do it anyway, cuz I know it is worth it. (=
Entitled this entry timeless because that is what precious memories and divine lessons and chastening are...they are timeless...and also, it's inspired my Christmas pressie. *haha*
I just finished my Friday’s worth of work... (almost..) Amazing isnt it? When all the pastors are not around, I seem more efficient. And what's cooler is that I will be flying of to Bangkok after work! haha. What if I never make it back!? What if I get kidnapped? What if I get lost in the throngs of shops and crowds of shopping maniacs? What if I get food poisonings? hahaha... aiyo.. I make it sound as if like I am going somewhere to suffer... I actually am not. Bangkok is really nice!! *glee* It has got cheap food, cheap clothes...spicy tom-yum soup.... whoooo....
If I have to sum up one constant and precious life-lesson I learnt this year, it would have to be, learning to be faithful with little. You see, I have very little to begin with in the first place, when the year started, I had a small cg, a young dating rs, I just started working in office holding an insignificant post...and being young and small doesnt exactly help u very much or motivate u to be faithful to be the kind of servant, steward, girlfriend, and worker.....
There were numerous nights I remember where I would cry myself to sleep, there were more times when I really think I have been plagued with mild depressions... I have come to realized that it doesnt take a life threatening situation or crisis to shake my faith in Christ... and this I dont like to see and know, yet I thank God that He is patient and that He is not finished with me yet... *phew*
Repetitive lessons on communication, on expectations, on forgiveness, on our pursuit for purity... on acceptance, on being gentle and godly in my dating rs with josh only make me come to the end of myself. Even in seeking God together, in our struggles to put God above ourselves, to first consider the other, proved sooooo tough... simple things like praying together and worshipping God together frustrated the both of us....
Working with a co-leader whom u do not know very well is very trying too. haha. the whole of 2006 has really taught me to work, live, love, accept people with different personalities, people who hold different values and beliefs...
Well, 2006 is not all that dark and gloomy, I got reconnected to a very special friend on my birthday! It is an answered prayer! I said a sentence prayer for my brother when he lost his wallet, and next day, on Christmas... it was found! I know especially on this occasion, God's teaching me to place my faith in Him and not fret/worry. & in more than 1 occasion, I thank God that He showed me that He is involved in little, intricate, intimate details of my life and that He hears every prayer, every cry of my heart... even though its 1 sentence or half a sentence or even a word or a sigh..... (=
Imitatio Christ begun dreadfully for me, as I literally feel age catching up with me..haha...and receiving the phone call from Angie on the second day in a midst of a game is not fun at all..... I really felt bad and was sooooo tempted to react... but it's after all Imitatio Christi! I decided to give all my grievances to God and allowed Him to be my strength.. the next morning, I was led to read psalm 62..... It brought me through Youth Camp.
I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will never be shaken. So many enemies against one man— all of them trying to kill me. To them I am just a broken-down wall or a tottering fence. They plan to topple me from my high position. They delight in telling lies about me. They praise me to my face but curse me in their hearts. Interlude Let all that I am waiting quietly before God, for my hope is in him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will not be shaken. My victory and honor come from God alone. He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me. O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge. Interlude Common people are as worthless as a puff of wind, and the powerful are not what they appear to be. If you weigh them on the scales, together they are lighter than a breath of air. Dont make your living by extortion or put your hope in stealing. And if your wealth increases, dont make it the center of your life. God has spoken plainly, and I have heard it many times: Power, O God, belongs to you; unfailing love, O Lord, is yours. Surely you repay all people according to what they have done.
Amen! Isnt God so great!? Next, Telunas.... what can I say? Beeauuu--tttiiii----Ful! See this pair of birds.... they so cute right? They always fly together.... when 1 gets lost/flies away, the other will call out to it.... one of my fav photos from Telunas...
More photos from Christmas, Telunas soon, promise!
Wrapping up, I was overwhelmed with awe and thankfulness after I opened all my Christmas cards, because the Lord has caught up with me, and He has overtaken me!
Affirmations of my labour came forth, appreciations were expressed. Cg became bigger... we are at 14 strong now... working relationship with Daniel improved,
dating relationship with josh grew and drew us closer to God...I am starting to like what I do now in office, and God reminded me on at least 2 occasions that my time is not up yet...
So in learning to press on, in and upward toward to God,
even when I had little, even when I feel small and insignificant...
has been so rewarding and enriching! not just cuz,
God has choose to entrust more to me but cuz I know,
it is in living with Him and others,
it is through life's irritations and dissatisfaction and imperfections
that we are driven to find ourselves and our place in Him.
And I know such lessons and transformations are priceless and timeless.
These battle scars are worth it. Because they bear the mark of Christ.
Indeed... The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom....
Blessed New Year everyone! (=
Aggie
ate wrote on 4:25 PM.
