Friday, September 14, 2007
Where am i? Am i there yet?
Feels gd to be blogging and writing again.
It's a luxury to do so.
This is one of the RARE nights that i've not only managed to come home early, but have enough time for a short post.
i really how tasty and inviting my blog looks now... and i like how i can identify with a macaron.... can u? =)
Past few months hasnt been smooth sailing,
It's filled with challenges, tricky situations, adjustments,
disappointments, tiredness, despair, illness....
It's normal i guess, life's such.
I'm not being pesimisstic, but the "not-so-nice, pls dun let that happen to me" will happen to u...
so learning to relax, let go, laugh and be positive is liberating.
I'm not exactly used to it yet, but i know God'll help me.
Shit happens, but God forgives. (=
Just last night, was feeling so dry and so incapable to love, to give of yourself, incapable to do anything much, really..
went to the Lord and poured out as best as i could..bowed my head and decided to cry and whine a little...
then i starting affirming God's character, presence, love, goodness and faithfulness in my life as i dun want my conversation to be all about me and my woes la...
and, so good was He that in my short time with Him, i was able to sense His deep love for me, for His children...
How i can such a brat, how i can fail and live my sinful live and yet He readily accepts me and love me so faithfully. How He always is ready to forgive, to clean my slate and to start afresh...
i felt ready to give.... to love, forgive and accept. It flowed out, from the inside of me.
Tonight, i feel dry again...
i know i need to go back..
=) God's has been teaching, alluring, guiding me.
Through these trials (last sun sermon is very apt)
i see how God is enough,
how good His grace is (and is able to meet my every need),
understand a little more how mysterious His ways can be,
i begin to be more thankful for His deepening work
(transformations & healings) through trials,
am aware of how He calls for my attention,
how ready He is to show me His love,
how i am not alone, i've got Him and His resources
and my loved ones walking the journey and doing life with me. (Thank you,!!)
i see more of His provision and guidance (in new ways..so much to know abt God)
Amidst life's unpleasant times, 1 thing stands true...
Do u know what?
Aggie
ate wrote on 9:11 PM.
